I do not know what I’m going through, but whatever it is that haunts me has nothing to do with my value as a person.
Everyone suffers, even those I admire. Things happen for a reason and sometimes the lesson of this pain will take me directly to success.
It all happens but no one understands me.
If other people have influenced me, I feel well, and if in a bad way I forgive them and move on. Grudges only hurt me.
People do not consciously hurt, sometimes I just do not know better. And if the pain in me deliberately sought because they live is an internal hell and I try to drag them all down.
I just do commiserate about them and turn away from this hell.