Just a few years ago I was in deep trouble, living with a highly negative state of mind.
“Why not?” I thought, after all, there are all kinds of negative people all around me, people that do all kinds of bad things, plus horrific things happening all over the world…I could see it on the tv news all the time. Not just that, but bad things happening to me as a cause of stupid people around me doing stupid decisions. How could I keep in a positive state of mind in a world like this one? How could I be optimistic if everything just goes wrong? How could I keep motivated after living in an ongoing cycle of survival scraping by just to make ends meet?
Yup, that was me, and after these last four years, it has been quite a ride. Never in my life, I thought I would change that state of mind especially because I just so happened to have countless proofs that “justified” me feeling negative about almost anything, everyone, and everything…and no one would change my way of thinking. I was a realist and nothing would ever prove me otherwise.
But something very interesting happened. Life gave me several blows at once that soon turned a bit traumatic to my already negatively fragile mindset. “That’s it,” I thought, “I’m done with this s#*%t.” I really had very few if any reasons to keep alive, and for what I thought. Life sucks.
But it was at the height of all this drama that I began to go deep, very deep inside me. I began to question my inner self, I began to wonder, I began to detach from so-called “reality” for a moment and going into that quiet peaceful state within. Many thoughts revolved around my head at first, many emotions flying left and right. After a few moments of mixed turbulence, it all began to fade away, blending in with an inner sense of calmness and peace.
It is in this state that I began to wonder about remote and unusual things I had never really thought of much about before. Deep and sincere questions began to set in that inner space, wondering about the very nature of existence and purpose of life.
Questions that needed answering and understanding of those answers, yet somehow I knew they were out there.
I became determined to find them.
And so my journey began, within me arose a desire to begin to better understand our human mind and purpose of life. A desire to understand who or what I was, and the nature of consciousness.
Positive thinking quickly became the first path to take me there, the path that would lead me to the research and understanding of what it means to be alive and exist, to understand better what experiences do for us whether we see them as positive or negative. I had never been spiritual in my life, but somehow practicalities slowly turned into wisdom attained that led to better comprehension and lots of unexplainable things that can only be best described as a feeling of “knowing.”
Today I have put some of what I have learned and what has helped me along the way. I have healed the past, and with it cleared the way for more wisdom, and the continuation of this journey that I so much tried to make sense of externally, not knowing that all of it was within.
And it is from within that you can change the outside no matter what it is.
I now want to invite all my fellow “negative thinkers” to learn from my experience, not to demonstrate but to give perspective of what can be done if you but take a moment to think deep and allow yourself the opportunity to know how with some simple information you can get inspired to go a long way and give you the momentum you need to start manifesting change starting with your own being and co-creating better experiences by design with those around you.
I discovered that life doesn’t have to suck!
All you need to start changing and understanding that perception is to Empower Yourself to open your mind and heart, and not allow yourself to become like I was, with a closed-minded belief system and a dead-end way of thinking.
And that is how Self-Empowerment Awakening was born.