Just a few years ago, I was in deep trouble, living with a highly negative and pessimistic state of mind.
“Why not?” I thought, after all, there are all kinds of negative people all around me, people that do all kinds of bad things, plus horrible things happening all over the world…I could see it on the tv news all the time.
Not just that, but felt there were many people around me who made my life miserable all the time. It was always this or that person’s fault no matter what. How could I keep in a positive state of mind in a world like this, surrounded by negative and unfair people everywhere? How could I have been optimistic if everything I did seemed to go wrong all the time? How could I have kept motivated after living in an ongoing cycle of survival scraping by just to make ends meet?
“Will somebody, please tell me why I should become a “positive thinker” and be in living in a dream land, pretending everything is good when reality tells me something totally different!”
Yup, that was me, and after these last few years, it has been quite a ride. Never in my life, I thought I would change that state of mind, especially because I just so happened to have countless proofs that “justified” me feeling negative about almost anything, everyone, and everything…and no one would change my way of thinking. I was a realist, and nothing would ever prove me otherwise.
How the positive journey began
Something very interesting happened. Life gave me several blows at once that soon turned a bit traumatic to my already negatively fragile mindset. “That’s it,” I thought, “I’m done with this s#*%t.” I really felt I had very few, if any, reasons to keep motivated and even few reasons to live. “For what?” I thought. Life really sucks. That’s how low I went at one point.
But it was at the height of all this despair that I began to go think deep. I began to question myself, I began to wonder, I began to detach from so-called “reality” for a moment and going into that quiet, peaceful state within. Many thoughts revolved around my head at first, many mixed emotions flying left and right. After a few moments of mental turbulence, it all began to fade away gradually, blending in with an inner sense of calmness and peace. That’s how best I can describe it.
It is in this state that I began to wonder about remote and unusual things I had never really thought of much about before. Deep and curious questions began to set in that inner space, wondering about the very nature of existence and purpose of life.
Questions that needed answers and understanding, somehow I knew they were out there.
I became determined to find them.
And so my journey began, within me arose a desire to begin to understand our human mind and purpose of life better. A desire to understand who or what I was, and the nature of consciousness.
Positive thinking quickly became the first path to take me there, the path that would lead me to the research and understanding of what it means to be alive and exist, to understand better what experiences do for us whether we see them as positive or negative. I had never considered myself as a “spiritual” person in my life, but somehow subtle and practical things I learned slowly turned into wisdom attained that led to much better comprehension and lots of unexplainable things that can only be best described as a feeling of “knowing.”
Today I have put some of what I have learned and what has helped me along the way. I have healed the past, and with it cleared the way for positive personal growth in many areas of my life. The experience of this life journey that I so tried to make sense of externally, little did I know that much of the answers are actually found within.
And it is from within that you can change your circumstances outside no matter what that is.
I now want to invite you to learn from my experience, to give a perspective of what can be done if you but take a moment to think deep and give yourself the opportunity to know how, with some simple information you can get inspired to go a long way. Giving you the momentum you need to start manifesting change. Starting with yourself and co-creating better experiences by design with those around you.
I discovered that life doesn’t have to be as bad as I once thought it was.
All you need to start changing that is to empower yourself, to open your mind and heart, and not allow yourself to become like I was–with a closed-minded belief system and a dead-end way of thinking.
And that is how Self-Empowerment Awakening was born.